A few nice organic fertilizer images I found:
How Would You Cope ???
Image by live w mcs
Honest to GOD, how would you "Cope"?
Is this really a crime???
No one seems to know what it is like having to live the way I do. Everyone wants to act like they do and assume things that just aren’t true and believe it to be fact.
I go to the park everyday for a safe place to be. I met a man with a cute little dog and thought we had at least a pleasent friendly casual friendship kinda conversation. For some reason the other day he turns his back on me, shunning me? That hurt terribly. I trust people that I shouldn’t!
The day before that a car pulls up right in front of me sitting on a bench with it’s engin running totally pucking me out with fumes staring at me, so I go to my car and another car is to the side of me pointed right at me, the same! It was like a SWAT team. I couldn’t believe it! For some reason they (SSD) must think I am trying to fool my illness or something. If I were crippled with arthritius or something and wasn’t using the right cream in their eyes would they say I wasn’t crippled form arthritius? How can people be so incredibly blind. Then a man strikes up a conversation with me at the other end of the park, a pleasant one. He spoke of how he works with water treatment and knows about all the chemicals in it. He was blowing me away with the chemicals on him plus the mold was getting to me. He ended it with saying he would pray for me. I stopped smoking that night and had really hoped I’d see him again the next day to confide in him and ask for a prayer I really needed. He said isn’t smoking compromising my immune system, adding to the load? I’m sure it’s not helping but they don’t have all the chemicals in them like others. I just got back our mold tests on the house. Two of them said the first thing is it compromizes the immune system. Second living in an area that is covered with chemicals "litterally" is compromizing my immune system. When there is a fog every morning it reeks of mold and fertilizers, cant anyone else smell that? Doesn’t anyone else get it or have a clue what it’s doing? The little I smoke doesn’t even come close to what all that other stuff is doing to me. It makes me to where my head hurts so bad, my ear starts buzzing against my brain, my right eye starts going blind, and my chest has crushing pain. So if smoking a smoke helps me deal with that for what ever reason why it helps then thats what I’m going to do. Do I like smoking….NO! Do I wish I could live somewhere that I didn’t feel the need for it?…YES Do I wish I could live in an area that I could breath and not hurt…YES!
I want to run away, run away from all of this and find my own peace my own safe place because all of this is just to crazy trying to put up with. People aren’t who they seem.
I have no one to talk to in the phsyical sense. No one to help me figure out things or get ideas from how to handle things. My husband doesnt help, I am so alone. I tried going to church but got to sick trying. I have no-one. Neighbors are cruel, no family to help, they don’t care and don’t understand.
I can’t live in my home or neighborhood. It makes me so so so sick. It’s all I can do to go there to take a shower and change clothes. I’m living in my car for God Sake! I’m tired of trying to find a safe place to live. After all this crazyness I’ve cried my eyes out.
Last night was the final straw. Now I can’t even sleep at night, that will do my health good won’t it? I was trying to sleep in my car in a parking lot. Chemicals were blowing me away and I heard talking, so I got up to look. They heard me moving around and ran for their cars and pulled away as quick as they could. I was scared what they put on the car, or was it just the chemicals that was on them that woke me? I was scared and mad! I followed one of the for quite a ways. When I finally got to a point where I could speek to him, he claimed they were just car pooling. After how they acted and what they did, I’m sure!!! What in the name of God is wrong with people. Why can’t they just leave me alone. Why do they have to tox me out. After that I was on the verge of having a nervous breakdown and went and bought another pack at 2AM, OH BOY!
Why do neighbors and lawn companies poision me and act like it’s no big deal?
Why can’t anyone imagine what it is like for me to live and what might help me temporarally in getting by?
Why do people have to laugh at me and give me rude looks when I am wearing my mask?
Why do people have to make fun of my car when all I’m trying to do is keep my meds cold?
Why won’t my husband protect me and find a safe place for me to live instead of living on the street?
Why can’t folks have a little compassion and try to understand my circumstances without judging?
Why why why why why?
I’m at the end of trying!
I’m giving up on it all……
I want to run away, run away from all of this and find my own peace my own safe place because all of this is just to crazy trying to put up with. People aren’t who they seem.
I need help, I’ve prayed for help and still "want to believe" it will happen.
People are being so cruel, I just don’t understand it, I don’t understand what could make them like that?
FRESH AIR, A TINY HOME FOR A ROOF OVER MY HEAD, GOOD EARTH
A PLACE TO FIND PEACE WITHOUT CHEMICALS AND MOLD
GOOD PEOPLE AND GOOD ORGANIC FOOD
This is my only hope at being more healthy!!!
I wanted to add, everytime like this, I look back and think how incredibly dumb this was!
20100410 Gardening 010
Image by Brian Vallelunga
We didn’t have access to all of the ingredients of "Mel’s Mix" so we used a combination of gardening soil, peat moss, perlite, potting soil and compost. All are organic and we shouldn’t need to use any fertilizer.
Rocky Chair
Image by PinoyMonkey
This is one of the best view that I’ve ever seen. Even tough the smell goes bad late in the afternoon because of the fertilizer. But the view is just so organic and real!
Hamilton, ON
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